Cayden,
One year ago our world was turned upside down. We weren’t expecting to meet you until March and were in the middle of making sure we had everything ready here at home for your arrival. That all changed on New Year’s Eve when you came into this world too soon weighing 1lb 5.9oz and measuring 12.5 inches long!
Over the next 124 days, we experienced many ups and downs as you fought your way through all the things that you were faced with while you grew bigger and stronger in NICU. You had the most amazing nurses, respiratory therapists, and doctors. They took such great care of you and would celebrate with us every time you overcame an obstacle you were faced with. They also shared the pain and sadness we felt when you were struggling. We can never express how eternally grateful we are to them, as without them and their skills, we wouldn’t have you today.
Due to many of the medical things you experienced, we were told that you might not ever be able to do things that other kids can do. Every day you showed us that your fighting spirit prevails and that you can and will do amazing things. Since you have been home, you have shown us how strong you really are. Your little personality really shines more and more every day. You “talk” all the time, like me, and you love our pets. Thankfully, they love you too!
You are an incredibly happy baby and even wake up smiling! You love to play and are very inquisitive. You study your toys, surroundings, and what other people are doing. More often than not, you attempt to imitate the things we do. You say “Da-Da”, and just today, I would swear I heard you say “Mama”! You LOVE to giggle and smile. You have a stubborn streak too. I say you got it from your daddy and he says that you got it from me. So, I guess you come by it honestly. You shake your head “no” often and will push the spoon or bottle away if you don’t want anymore to eat. You fuss if you want something, so we are working on telling you what it is and using words for the items you want in hopes that you will learn to use those too.
You aren’t mobile yet, but, I know that it won’t be long. Your physical therapist works with you on mobility and range of motion for your torticollis. Your sitter, daddy, and I also work hard to help you with those things here at home. You are also pulling up on things, especially people. Standing is one of your favorite things to do and if you don’t want to sit and we try to sit you on the floor, you stiffen your body and refuse to sit. See, I told you that you have a stubborn streak!
You are such a cuddler and enjoy being held and snuggled, all the while, you are continuing to show us your independence. We have discovered that you have quite the attachment to us and are bashful at time with strangers. Yet, when you warm up to them, you are a little ham! You love to bounce and jump and listen to music. If the TV is on and it’s something that interests you, you are all eyes to the TV. You have even been known to lean over and look around someone if they are in your way!
You know if we leave the room and that upsets you quite a bit. Everything you get is going into your mouth, so we are constantly watching to make sure you don’t get something that could be dangerous. You especially love when one of the animals licks your hand. The other day I caught you trying to shove your whole hand into Mr. Kitty’s mouth because he was licking you and you thought it was funny. You don’t quite realize that a cat’s mouth is far smaller than the dogs and they don’t want your hand in their mouth like the dogs will let you! I sure had a good laugh over that!
I can see your first tooth FINALLY coming in! Woohoo! You’ve had a rough go with that and it’s our hope that you don’t have a rough haul for the next ones, or the same amount of time either because at the rate it took this one to break the skin, you’ll be 40 and still getting teeth in!
Size wise, you are still small – not quite 14 pounds. You are wearing 0-3 month clothes, but you are growing in length and they are starting to get too small there. You aren’t a big eater, only taking about 16-21 ounces of formula a day and eating solids about twice a day. You love all the baby foods we have tried except prunes. If we let you, you will play in your food and create quite a mess. You have attempted to hold your bottle in the past, but couldn’t tilt it to get the formula out. Over the past week you have insisted on holding your bottle and are doing a great job feeding yourself if you are in a reclined position. Not only that, but I found a sippy cup with a nipple like a bottle and you do great with that too!
You still sleep through the night for the most part. You prefer to be rocked to sleep now and enjoy a book if you aren’t too tired. We have been concerned that you are having night terrors because you wake up in the middle of night screaming and you aren’t hungry. We are seeing a more consistent pattern to naps and eating, which is helpful for planning your appointments.
You still LOVE bath time and get really excited when you hear the water running and you get undressed for your bath. You have started playing more with your bath toys and scare the pants off mama when you attempt to crawl and pull up in the bathtub!
Medically speaking, you are sill on four medications and require three additives to your formula, which is still the low birth weight formula. Your roster of doctors has not changed, but the time in between appointments is starting to be more spaced out – yay! Your helmet to fix your plagiocephaly is doing wonders. It looks like it will be March before that is a thing of the past, but it’s okay. You didn’t cooperate completely for your last hearing test, so we don’t have the all clear on that just yet, but we know you can hear just fine! You’ll have your 12 month check up next month and I’m sure that Dr. P is going to be thrilled with all you are doing – we know we are.
The past year has been a challenge for all of us – full of joy, fear, excitement, and the unknown. We have shed tears, shared laughs, and met incredible people along this journey. Our lives have been blessed with you and we experience more happiness as we delight in your development, wonder, discovery, and innocence. We couldn’t imagine a life without you in it. Every bit of that roller coaster ride was worth it all.
Happy first birthday Cayden!!!!
I love you all the way to the moon and back my sweet baby boy….
-Mama & Daddy
P.S. Here are some of his pictures from his one year photo shoot – thanks Amanda!!






